When I first started working at 19, I was a rug; i’d take everything bad and not say anything back, or even speak.
In the recent years, I have found my voice.. having the opposite problem of not being able to shut it 😅 While we should speak up and defend ourselves… sometimes it’s better to pay no mind and just not take it.
My one resolution I took for work was to have more patience. Growing up I was a fiery teenager, so much that i’d fight verbally with my dad all the time- having the same character. When I got sick, I knew it ran deeper as I couldn’t take anything and yelling would make me break down and cry. Being medicated, i’ve certainly grown more mellow.
However, learning to speak up and stand for myself made me fiery at work. Like- way beyond the point of standing up for yourself anymore, just being an ass. I’ve always been strict and on-part with rules; but it was too much where i’d yell and be sour when people wouldn’t do up to my standard. Not only is it a bad environment, but also I kept being under pressure and unhappy.
This year, I wanna put a barrier up. Not being a carpet and standing for myself, while also not taking everything to heart. Speaking up only when it’s time, and not EVERYTIME.
I’ve started to notice that things have started to feel better; I communicated my needs, I stopped taking all the tasks on my shoulders alone. I’ve definately stepped down a notch and isn’t so intense anymore. I’ve been told to learn the art of letting go for years now, but it had always been something I found hard to do.
What’s your resolutions, life wise?