It’s easy to forget about anxiety until..
Being medicated for so many years, it’s easy to wonder if I imagined it. If what I lived at my deepest worst was real or a mirage type of dream.
This is why my Dr. constantly remind me that it’s the medication working. All that matters is that I feel good & normal in the bottom line. I should never belittle myself or feel guilty for that, and absolutely NOT stop them.
✦ It’s easy to forget about anxiety.. until I can’t sleep despite my night medication and I need to listen to my “breathe” playlist to drift off and shut up my brain.
✦ It’s easy to forget about anxiety.. until I’m troubled about going to my nails appointment; that place where I went there many times before, starting to being a regular and thus knowing what will happen in the appointment.
✦ It’s easy to forget about anxiety.. until i’m nervous about going literally anywhere alone. Or calling somewhere other than the vet.
✦ It’s easy to forget about anxiety.. until I’m dead scared of other’s reaction to my yet again change of hair (especially buzz cutting them on accident). Scared my boss wouldn’t like me working like that.
✦ It’s easy to forget about anxiety.. before getting overwhelmed by something and suddently act unpleasant. Raising my voice, rambling, getting angry easier, not able to control myself, shaking..
✦ It’s easy to forget about anxiety.. until I wanna wear my cardigan or mask at work despite being too warm, just to feel covered.
What’s yours? We’re not alone xx