Sunday Chat — The feeling of loneliness

Morning, my people!

Yep, we are doing another one of thoses today.. To be honest, I kinda like the idea of freely being able to speak about whatever has been on my mind lately, without the fear that anyone would be bothered by it or not care at all (as it’s basically the point of this meme, right? 😅)

 

* This is my version of the meme “Sunday’s Post” going around the blogosphere (without the this week’s/next week’s posts) hosted by @Caffeinated Reviewer.

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While it has been technically a week yesterday already; in case you missed my thread on twitter, I can proudly say that I got my permit first try!! 😍 I had been utterly nervous, made LOTS of errors with my driving instructor (probably pulled a muscle in my back aswell as it’s been hurting since..) but somehow I did it all perfect with the lady inspector!

With covid and all the changes, it has been quite an adventures to get that paid and done 🤦🏽‍♀️ but that’s now out of the way now! No matter what i’d get my full permit in a year’s time; my only restrincts are only 3 passengers and no alcohol permitted (I don’t have a timeframe limit as i’m over 21 ✌🏼)

 

★ I finally caved and got Netflix back.. currently re-watching Cardcaptor Sakura; which is crazy as I still vaguely remember some of the shows that i’ve watched as a kid 😂 but I didn’t remembered AT ALL that the other cardcaptor guy has been his rival.. I only remember that one show where they were crushing on each other?? 🤔

The few firsts ones has been wild though, as I had watched it as Quebec French Dub… and of course only the english is available on netflix. So it took me aback that the names changed xd they kept the japaneese names in the Netflix one.

 

★ I’ve been feeling kinda off again lately :/ while not being sure of how to fix it .. when I was clearly overworking myself, I had been so angry at everything. Every little detail just made me rage for no reason.

This is different.. it’s a feeling of sadness and loneliness; which is probably due to the fact that although I still work 40hrs a week and blog and all- I always end up with so many excess time on my hands that idk what to do with 🤦🏽‍♀️ and nobody to do things with; my only bestfriend being 3hrs away, and the only real friend I got here is overflowed with work. Not to mention how I don’t have a 8-5 weekdays job; I basically work whenever and my days off are sundays and mondays 🙃

 

★ talking about making friends.. I seriously got no ideas how to even process with that. With the covid, it’s even harder to get out anywhere but work, and it’s not me to just go to someone and randomly start talking to them xd

I’m in this wierd limbo where I do wanna make friends to feel less lonely.. but I feel like it’s not worth opening and over-sharing over and over again as they’d leave for whatever reason and i’m having to start over again. But then you can’t really be friends if you don’t open up to each other, right??

 

★ I did so much better with my exercising when I was a week off work.. but with how i’ve been feeling and this odd middle-back hurting, I’m back at doing my yoga only once per week 😓 instead of my usual 2 (that used to be three) so ithink i’m just gonna stop that beach body for a while – even if I do have the means to pay for it, it just super bother me if I don’t use it and that plays on shaming myself alot for not doing it. I’ll concentrate on walking my dogs on beautiful and less-hot evenings instead..

 

★ I’m currently finishing Emergency Contact and shall have the review up soon-ish!! I only have ~20% to go but as with the exercicing.. i’m kind of pushing it a little 🙃

 

 

How was your week, my loves?