The year of neutral mood strikes again, going in a bookstore and buying nothing?

I don’t go into book shops often, but when I go usually I end up buying around 5-6books and continually pick up and drop books, not being able to decide which ones I wanna go for when there’s SO many that I’ve seen the hype for online.

However.. this time was different. Even mother commented how she never saw me having such trouble picking something before.. We even left the bookstore with no new book, only two items for my goddaughter (a compartiment plate & a combo of 3 small book – tissue, pram & bath book).


 

I’m quite upset by it now, wondering if it will eventually going away, as this seems to be quite a constant this year! Finishing a book, nothing strikes me as interesting nor do I know what I feel like reading.. Sure I had gotten a few book slumps before, but nothing quite like this.

 

One thing that bothered me from the get go was how all books translated to French was so HUGE! brick-like caliber, while still having the front not that big.. I saw a French One Last Stop that was atleast double the volume of the original one I have! Big books scares me, it is a nope from my part.

and on the opposite, we had smaller books that had such a small fonts! even with my glasses I was struggling a bit- way too small for my liking — why are they making books like that?! 🥲  I was also wanting to pick up “From Lukov with Love” but there was so much glue on it that I could barely open the book. You’d need to crack the spine for sure, otherwise you just can’t read that..

 

While I do spend quite alot of money buying books, I also wanna get something that I feel id wanna read – not buying because of a pretty cover or for the hell of it. And that’s my problem with this neutral mood BS, because everything feel “meh” to me right now!

I picked up and carried some books Iknow were on my list, but reading the synopsis I didn’t felt like reading it, so I feared it would stay there – and I don’t want that. I also feel like I didn’t crossed the ones I really wanted – like “Maybe you should talk to someone”, where I saw the french version & the workbook version.

 

Most of all this upset me, because my mental health already gave me trouble reading before, where I had gotten so lost in books I couldn’t finish them- so i’m wondering if that’s also part of something like that.. Silver lining though iguess I’ll be spending less on books if I can checkout from the library those i’m not sure? and imean I have 20ish books on my shelves already..

 

Did something like this happened to you?
What helped you in that situation?

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