A lookup of my year; 2018 š

The last month of the year, wow! Seems like 2018 went by so quickly, and yet .. here we are, only a shadow away from this new year upon us.
A lot of me just cannot believe weāll be im 2019 soon, I just.. never thought weād get this far you know šš Ā Nonetheless, 2018 was quite a good year for me, and gave me quite alot that iāve been wishing for so long.
This post is technically not book oriented, but hey, let me ācheatā a little and include it as bookending winter aswell because, why not!Ā
1- Hapiness
The more important thing first; after iāve gotten my job at the sexshop (end of 2017), itās the happiest iāve ever been since.. I had gotten so low in my anxiety and depression; I just reread my older writtings on my tumblr and I just cannot believe that it was me.. However I do remember the aching pain I felt in that moment, though, and iām mostly always bursting in tears (surprise, eh..).
I finally got some weight on my body. When all this mess started (2014-2015?), my body decided to give me a stomach problem which was anxiety driven; and I went from 120lbs to 110 in the span of a week. You can imagine how I freaked out, this was NOT even from will. Out of the blue, and in an unhealthy way I lost quite alot ā and got a little paranoia onto weighting myself for a while .. and never saw thoses pounds coming back on my body after that problem had been fixed with depression medication.
Until this very moment that is, when I started being happy again. I had a job I loved and enjoyed, my boss was a sweetheart and appreciated what I was doing for her (unlike the rest iāve ever had). I still do have bad days, being happy 100% of the time just isnāt possible, but things got an incredible amount better from where i was.
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2- Love
2018 has also brought me love, something I desperately wanted for years ā bringing my soul down even more in the process, as i felt it was THE thing I was really missing (dogs can only do so much..)
and I finally found him, years later. āFunniestā part, on tinder out of all the places. I had loaded/deleted the app many times, falling only on thoses who only wanted sex.. you know, with todayās society and all. And- I decided to try again, I was lonely and really really wanted to have a manās attention. Out of the couple guys I was talking to at the time, he was my favorite one. And a good looking one at that !
But what got me, probably, was that under the gym fanatic (as im so NOT that) there was a gamer who was always up for junkfood and being lazy (yep. I LOVE being lazy).
Myself, who usually RUN FOR THE HILLS when a stranger want to meet me -even just as friends, lets say it- was completely fine with meeting this cute one. So at a fair that was, anxiety had the kick-off but went away as soon as I saw that shy boy. This exact one who kissed me on top of the ferris wheel and had asked to hold my hand.
After only that one date, our fate was sealed. Not gonna lie, things went so quick xD boom boom and done. Half of a year together already and I couldnāt had found better, though yeah.. he couldāve had spoke french but hey xD you cannot have everything ahah.
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3- Dreams
Iāve never was someone who had like, real dreams and such for my future .. sadly as it sounds. And yet this year .. Iāve been dreaming, and even looking forward to a couple of things ā which I donāt recall ever being the case !
Where Iād want my blog to be (maybe even making it my career, who know!), living on my own with the weeins and Alex, Finally taking the jump for be able to drive..
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4- Money (?)
Considering Iāve had only 15hours while working at the Sex Shop, you can say iāve somewhat gotten more money ; my work hours have more than doubled every weeks and I also have tips !
Iāve been able to afford things, like my mac, who wouldāve had been absolutely out of the question beforehand. Which was also a good thing with how much of my money went for vet expenses this year for the weeins.. *aherm*.
Only down point in that is .. having more hours, and more often on evenings, itās getting alot more difficult to juggle with both of our schedule for Alex and I to see each other; Which I hope 2019 will be better on that.
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5- Friends !!
Okay, I might not have gain more āphysicalā friends I can actually do stuff with ; but nonetheless, the bookish community have gave me lots and lots of friends !!
People I can chat with at any times of my day (perks of timezones ! ahah) about anything and everything, and I know I wonāt be judge and if we talk bookish and blogish ā ones thatād actually understands what im talking about !
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Thoses have been my 5 main things that 2018 brought me !
What would be yours ?
Hey, I don’t really know you but I’m happy that 2018 has brought you good things! Especially what you wrote about happiness really made me feel the feels. Hope 2019 only adds more uplifting moments to the list! <3
Awww thank you ā¤ļø I wish you an amazing 2019 aswell!
Yay for a good 2018! <3
Eeeek I’m so glad 2018 brought you so many good things girl <3 I need to make a mental note to swing by your blog more often *hides in shame* BUT 2018 has kinda been a wash out year for me, for many reasons.
Anyhoo I hope you have a great end to this year if I don't pop by again and I love ya *squishes in hug*
ahahah awww, No worries !
I love ya too !
Hopefully 2019 would be even better xx ā¤ļø
What a cool place to work! I hope your 2019 brings more joy and love!!!
It is ! though sometimes people are.. people xD
Thanks, I wish you the same xx
You have had a great year and I am happy for you. I wish 2019 is as happy as this one.
Aww Thank you <3 May your 2019 be a happy one aswell !
Omg Iām so happy that 2018 got you happy things! I was able to relate too, because I quit a job that I didnāt like and I really love my new job now! Hereās to a happier 2019! š„ā¤ļø
Woohoo !! Yay for leaving toxic jobs and finding a much better one xx
May 2019 be better, healthier,happier !!