Learning to let go
The concept of letting go, and being able to do it, is quite an important thing to have; specially during times like we’re currently facing.
I’ve always been envious of thoses for whom it seems so easy to just shrug everything off.
You may not be able to tell solely from the blog, but I have quite the hardest time to actually let go of thing; even if I know that there’s nothing that I can really do.. I’m the kind of person who believes in being genuine, to help others and to always give your 100% when working on something.
♦ Even if I know most of my peers at work don’t follow the rules without even being noticed or told anything, I just can’t bring myself to so the same aswell – Rules are meant to be followed, and that’s a huge for me.
♦ The sayings “Act your pay range” and “Minimum wage = minimum efforts” drives me absolutely nuts ! No, just no.. you should always do things properly -no cutting things shorts- no matter how much money you make. That’s one thing if you didn’t knew it should be done a specific way.. but avoiding to give all the effort necessary just because you aren’t paid enough to do it is shady; and i’m sorry but if I know that’s what you do i’m gonna inform you onto how you need/suppose to do it. 🙈
♦ More related to the current situation; knowing how my ex lived, and knowing how the current lockdown must be really bad for his depression (which was even worst than mine); I can’t help but feel like I shall check up on him to make sure he’s okay. Because that’s just the things I do; and i’m having the hardest time trying to ignore that urge… specially when I lay awake at night.
Learning to let go of thoses things would not only bring me some peace of mind, but also help me with my anxiety.
But allowing yourself to let go of some things can be so hard too.. while knowing it’d be best for myself in general, I also don’t wanna end up to stop caring entirely. Caring too much for everything in a world where the majority don’t even care is hard – but I don’t want to become one of them either; it’ such a wonderful thing to have -to be- one who cares !
I wanna think that some things are worth caring for, while others might be best just ignoring; having a nice mix of the two.