Trichotillomania final update

My tricho journey started way back in 2020; starting a bald spot over my left side of my head, moving upward my skull and downward while the old spot grew back.. last that we spoke I had a medium size bald spot in the middle back of my head- shaving shorter constantly to try and remove it before growing them long again.

Related; Shaving my head w/ tricho, Tricho awareness, Trichotillomania’s curves

It’s been six years..

And I can finally say that I’m growing my hair out again after about 2 years of shaving. The bald spots are completely gone 🥰 I can’t tell you exactly what changed, the urges receded and my skull aren’t itchy anymore. I had an issue with my hair follicules growing more than one hair at a time, creating chunks that would itch and get me started on plucking.. which would turn into obsessive plucking further and created the bald spots. The patch would heal and create scabs, which made me constantly scratch at them to remove, creating an evil circle.

To be honest, I never thought i’d see the day where my head of hair wouldn’t had any bald spots. Ofcourse it created major insecurities, and i’m glad customers shut up and never pointed them out too much. Scratching and pulling obviously made my scalp painful, and I would apply rubbing alcohol on it to relief my urges and made sure infection didn’t occur.

It’s an addicting and painful situation. Far most that the exterior of what we looks like- it’s also the shame of being unable to stop. the risk of infection and sepsis that’s very present.

My guess would be that the cortisol in my body and anxiety finally receded. I didn’t put in place a different coping mechanism, I just continued dancing and incorporated a vagus nerve release routine; and continuing taking my anxiety meds.