Blogging with Anxiety; Can I say that?

Heeyo!!

Yep- TWO blogging with anxiety posts back-to-back .. just because I’d thought it would be cool to have them on two consecutive days as they both are subjects of “posts” in particular.

My other “Blogging with Anxiety” posts; Feeling we’re not enough // Content Wise // Stats // Posts Paranoïa // Have I posted this before?

As probably most of theses, it can go two ways; A) In term of words and sentences in general.. as we all know i’m not born english, and sometimes my brain just do not work and i’m not even sure my sentences makes sense. And B) I sometimes fear that the way that I put my sentences, or use of words, offends anybody in any way without meaning to; or maybe say something that I shouldn’t.

As probably lots of multi-languals can agree on, this is something that’s not only present in my writing.. but EVERYWHERE else also. I’m also writting english in the “french way” (so does my pronunciations..), so sometimes I just make wierd errors because I’m mixing my two languages together xD for exemple.. I know words can change for plurals, but it doesn’t feel plural enough!! so what do my brain decide to do? add random “s” on them even when they don’t need it, or else my brain tells me it’s wrong..

This is even more relevant now that I work alot, Wednesday to Saturday, so if I miss my boat to write my following posts needed for Sunday and/or Thursday well.. I need to write it after work. And i’m telling you it can be a struggle and I might need that exterior help when you look at a sentence and have legitly NO. IDEA. if it even make sense because the day had been busy and you apparently left your brain at work 😂 Which most of the times, I probably write huge sentences with unnecessary words when I could go even shorter and sweeter but it just doesn’t occur to me at that moment — though I am fully bilinguals, languages are hard and you learn every day.. even now I fall on words I have no idea what it even means! As I never heard them before.

As for “will it offend somebody”, it can be either on something where i’m sharing MY experiences or thoughts and I kinda feel the need to put a disclamer that this is my, and my thoughts only — that things can be lived differently by different people and etc.. because sometimes you never know with the internet; and I just wanna share and not make anyone else feel their own thoughts is wrong or anything?

And of course related to the language not being the one you’re born with, the fear of saying something absolutely wrong is truly always there! Wether you are writing or speaking .. because english does this wierd thing where putting the word in a different order means something completely different! Cue “working hard VS hardly working”.. If not thought of, you can end up saying something absolutely rude when meaning the opposite 😳

Do you feel that way too with words?
What are other things that activate your anxieties?