Blogging with Anxiety; Would people wanna read this // Is it too personal

Hey!

As I was reading Jayatiā€™s ā€œBlogging anxietiesā€ yesterday, thoses specific fears of mine just hit me ā€” which is pretty ironic that they are probably the most present ones lately šŸ˜…Ā To my surprise, I havenā€™t really talked about thoses yet!Ā (though pretty much all of them end up being a little mess of a few things stagged together)

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My other ā€œBlogging with Anxietyā€ posts;Ā Feeling weā€™re not enoughĀ //Ā Content WiseĀ //Ā StatsĀ //Ā Posts ParanoĆÆaĀ //Ā Have I posted this before?Ā //Ā Can I Say that?Ā //Ā Missing A PostĀ //Ā TagsĀ //Ā Not a ā€œgood enoughā€ postĀ //Ā Was it worth posting?Ā //Ā Overthinking & ParanoĆÆaĀ // feeling like a broken record


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Ofcourse I started this blog because not only do I barely have any friends, but theyā€™re not even bookish to begin with! And speaking YA books with my mother or godmother that are way older than me is fine, but quite different.. Sometimes itā€™s just nice to speak with someone along your own age, right?

Though I still very much give myself the ā€œBook Blogā€ etiquette, as time passed I start branching out more to not just books ā€“ but gaming, blogging, mental health.. and anything else that I feel like writing, really! Sometimes, this even becomes a sort of diary where I vent out everything thatā€™s bothering me about a subject in specificĀ (which would be ā€œMy writingā€ posts); as iā€™m a thinker, writing down what is bothering me helps greatly. Added the fact that whoever is reading me might help with a different perspective I havenā€™t thought of, or simply share their own struggles too.

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Would people wanna read this?
While iknow the concept of a blog is that YOU have the choice of whatever you wanna post, aswell as when ā€¦ I struggle alot with the thought that what I might have to say wouldnā€™t be interresting enough. Itā€™s a kind of ā€œtraumaā€ in a way, as iā€™ve always been labelled as the annoying one growing up, my self confidence hasnā€™t really recovered šŸ˜¶

Most times than not, I end up sharing whatever I wrote to one/a few of my friends to get their thoughts on the matter. Not once had they told me I shouldnā€™t post it ā€“ theyā€™ve always been positive that it was indeed interresting and I should go ahead and post it. All of them. Iā€™m trying my hardest to just, stop thinking so much and just press the damn button! šŸ¤£Ā I can post and write whatever I want.. who cares the stats it gets?Ā 
(Truthfully, the past few months had horrible views ā€“ highest being around 400 a month, to a low 200/250 lately)

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Is it too personal?
Iā€™m a big fan of oversharing.. as we know. And growing up along with new technology in the 2000s, iā€™m very much aware and concerned about internet safety. One other thing my obsessive side of my anxiety just takes and runs with ā€” being torn between the writting relief of things, with people being able to give you feedback unlike writing in a notebook, and the paranoĆÆa of ā€œCan I say that online safely?ā€.

Most times I tend to just ignore it or partly share it anyway.. aswell as refering myself to what iā€™ve read other bloggers sharing in Sundayā€™s Post or wrap ups to kinda base myself on.

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Do you struggle with thoses too?
What are you personal blogging anxieties?

6 comments

  1. My blogging anxieties are similar to yours, esp. whether the stuff I write online will be seen by people I know in real life and whether people are at all interested in what I post. I am glad you expressed your anxieties in this post. And donā€™t worry, do keep posting what you feel like!

    1. Thank you dear ā¤ļø
      Somehow, people I know in real life reading what I wrote isnā€™t an issue for me.. I would willingly show them šŸ˜…

  2. Ah I am always worried about oversharing too but I also think that itā€™s my blog and yeah, itā€™s majorly about books but at the end of the day, it is about who I am and I get to choose what all I talk about it even if it feels a bit too much to be telling others.
    and well, you know Iā€™m worried about whether people will want to read it but Iā€™m hoping if I continue to post about things important to me, there will be people who will find them important too!

    1. Thatā€™s very true, though I worry more of the Ā«Ā safetyĀ Ā» side of things.. not really the oversharing itself :p

      Yes! We want people who loves the blog for the writer rather than solely the content ā€” as the content can change, but well.. we canā€™t šŸ˜…

  3. Oh my gosh, Iā€™m an over-sharer, too! I also donā€™t know how to teach (whether in person of via my writing) without stories. So I often feel my blog should have a ā€œCast of Charactersā€ section on the ā€œAbout ā€ page XD. But I vividly remember the first post I ever wrote where I *really* got into my fears/anxiety and my journey with my mental health. I used a ā€˜Doctor Whoā€™ episode where the Doctor is trapped in a Confession Dial as the avenue to discuss those issues in my own life and it was really uncomfortable hitting ā€œpublishā€ for it.

    Ultimately though it was helpful. And Iā€™ve pushed myself to try and share more in similar pieces since then and, while itā€™s a bit unnerving hitting ā€œpost,ā€ it always feels rewarding to open myself in that way. Iā€™ve even spent some time reading and exploring some of those posts with my therapist in our sessions. As Iā€™ve found your blog and been reading several of your posts tonight, I really appreciate your sharing here and I wanted to let you know Iā€™m with you :D. Itā€™s a bit unnerving but I think itā€™s so, so worth it.

    1. Iā€™m happy to hear!
      Writing has always been that outlet for me; as iā€™m a big thinker, the act of writing whatā€™s rolling over in my head allow me to really let it go and allow me to be able to sleep afterward. (Ofcourse im also suffering from insomnia..) ā€” I love being able to just let my fingers connect directly to my brain and write everything as it comes without modifying anything. Iā€™m quite good at that.

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