Hey!
As I was reading Jayati’s “Blogging anxieties” yesterday, thoses specific fears of mine just hit me — which is pretty ironic that they are probably the most present ones lately 😅 To my surprise, I haven’t really talked about thoses yet! (though pretty much all of them end up being a little mess of a few things stagged together)
My other “Blogging with Anxiety” posts; Feeling we’re not enough // Content Wise // Stats // Posts Paranoïa // Have I posted this before? // Can I Say that? // Missing A Post // Tags // Not a “good enough” post // Was it worth posting? // Overthinking & Paranoïa // feeling like a broken record
Ofcourse I started this blog because not only do I barely have any friends, but they’re not even bookish to begin with! And speaking YA books with my mother or godmother that are way older than me is fine, but quite different.. Sometimes it’s just nice to speak with someone along your own age, right?
Though I still very much give myself the “Book Blog” etiquette, as time passed I start branching out more to not just books – but gaming, blogging, mental health.. and anything else that I feel like writing, really! Sometimes, this even becomes a sort of diary where I vent out everything that’s bothering me about a subject in specific (which would be “My writing” posts); as i’m a thinker, writing down what is bothering me helps greatly. Added the fact that whoever is reading me might help with a different perspective I haven’t thought of, or simply share their own struggles too.
Would people wanna read this?
While iknow the concept of a blog is that YOU have the choice of whatever you wanna post, aswell as when … I struggle alot with the thought that what I might have to say wouldn’t be interresting enough. It’s a kind of “trauma” in a way, as i’ve always been labelled as the annoying one growing up, my self confidence hasn’t really recovered 😶
Most times than not, I end up sharing whatever I wrote to one/a few of my friends to get their thoughts on the matter. Not once had they told me I shouldn’t post it – they’ve always been positive that it was indeed interresting and I should go ahead and post it. All of them. I’m trying my hardest to just, stop thinking so much and just press the damn button! 🤣 I can post and write whatever I want.. who cares the stats it gets?
(Truthfully, the past few months had horrible views – highest being around 400 a month, to a low 200/250 lately)
Is it too personal?
I’m a big fan of oversharing.. as we know. And growing up along with new technology in the 2000s, i’m very much aware and concerned about internet safety. One other thing my obsessive side of my anxiety just takes and runs with — being torn between the writting relief of things, with people being able to give you feedback unlike writing in a notebook, and the paranoïa of “Can I say that online safely?”.
Most times I tend to just ignore it or partly share it anyway.. aswell as refering myself to what i’ve read other bloggers sharing in Sunday’s Post or wrap ups to kinda base myself on.
Do you struggle with thoses too?
What are you personal blogging anxieties?
My blogging anxieties are similar to yours, esp. whether the stuff I write online will be seen by people I know in real life and whether people are at all interested in what I post. I am glad you expressed your anxieties in this post. And don’t worry, do keep posting what you feel like!
Thank you dear ❤️
Somehow, people I know in real life reading what I wrote isn’t an issue for me.. I would willingly show them 😅
Ah I am always worried about oversharing too but I also think that it’s my blog and yeah, it’s majorly about books but at the end of the day, it is about who I am and I get to choose what all I talk about it even if it feels a bit too much to be telling others.
and well, you know I’m worried about whether people will want to read it but I’m hoping if I continue to post about things important to me, there will be people who will find them important too!
That’s very true, though I worry more of the « safety » side of things.. not really the oversharing itself :p
Yes! We want people who loves the blog for the writer rather than solely the content — as the content can change, but well.. we can’t 😅
Oh my gosh, I’m an over-sharer, too! I also don’t know how to teach (whether in person of via my writing) without stories. So I often feel my blog should have a “Cast of Characters” section on the “About ” page XD. But I vividly remember the first post I ever wrote where I *really* got into my fears/anxiety and my journey with my mental health. I used a ‘Doctor Who’ episode where the Doctor is trapped in a Confession Dial as the avenue to discuss those issues in my own life and it was really uncomfortable hitting “publish” for it.
Ultimately though it was helpful. And I’ve pushed myself to try and share more in similar pieces since then and, while it’s a bit unnerving hitting “post,” it always feels rewarding to open myself in that way. I’ve even spent some time reading and exploring some of those posts with my therapist in our sessions. As I’ve found your blog and been reading several of your posts tonight, I really appreciate your sharing here and I wanted to let you know I’m with you :D. It’s a bit unnerving but I think it’s so, so worth it.
I’m happy to hear!
Writing has always been that outlet for me; as i’m a big thinker, the act of writing what’s rolling over in my head allow me to really let it go and allow me to be able to sleep afterward. (Ofcourse im also suffering from insomnia..) — I love being able to just let my fingers connect directly to my brain and write everything as it comes without modifying anything. I’m quite good at that.