How the current events are affecting me

Hello everyone !

Iknow this post is a little late, but I frankly didn’t knew what to do for today & tomorrow’s post.. as of which I just opted to have a little chatty post for today ! I’m gonna try my best to have a more “actual” post for tomorrow 😅

Where I am, in Southern New-Brunswick, Canada we are now “technically” in a state of emergency. Meaning, all the fun things are closed; though restaurants, like our Café, can remains open but drive-thru or delivery only. This mesure doesn’t affect the liquor store, cannabis store, pharmacies and grocery store as they are labelled as neccesities – of course (though we aren’t sure why of the cannabis & liquor store but anyway xd)

We have no idea until when we will remain open.. but when asked I told my boss that I was fine to work. Like anything, I asked mom before xd which she was like; well you might aswell work until the end because you’ll feel bad if you don’t — as of which, just deciding that I’m not covering anyone on my days off make me spiral of guilt soo 🙈

When all this started, my anxiety was at his highest; My mom having received a kidney and taking pills to kill her immune system, I was of course very scared of giving this to her. Or just her getting it, somehow, as it would mean that I’d lose my mother — but going even further, my dad probably would be in deep shit too, as he has asthma and lost some capacity of his lungs since a very bad flu a couple years back.. with some retrospection, i’m wondering if he didn’t got this thing when this happened, as they are now saying that even healthy younsters who get it will permanently lose like 20% of their lung capacity.. and that’s what happened to him (though he’s WAY older than that) and even his doctor has no idea what happened with him soo.. 🤔

Now, I can’t say i’m really that anxious anymore … i’m just feeling really lazier and melancholic in all this. Days when I go to work, I come back and maybe exercice and play video games; thoses days don’t feel so bad. My two days off however … I know I could read quite a good chunk, maybe even watch some animes, pretty good time to have some blogging duties done !!! but what do I do? I mostly sleep and play videogames. It used to be sims, but now as New Horizon launched; you bet that’s all i’m putting my time into 😂

My posts creativity is literally dead. I can’t think of anything I wanna expend my writing on for a “decent” lenght post.. And I have like 5 ideas written down from the early month !!! I just- they all feel kinda “meh” right now and I don’t know what to write.. Of course, I know I can just skip posts and not do anything but that STILL pang me with guilt 🤦🏽‍♀️ I WANT TO WRITE, but I just don’t know on what.. and i’m super annoyed that I don’t have anything to post for due dates because of that..

How are things where you are?
Do you feel the same impact as I do blogging wise?