My Heart and Other Black Holes ~ Jasmine Warga ☆ Review

Again with books from the library that actually was on my “virtual wanna read” rather than my actual owned TBR 🙈

Dani’s review was the one to make me wanna read it this time. I also grew to quite like titles like that “My __ and other ___”.

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4 / 5 stars

Triggers; Suicide (idealizations, attempts & planning), Death, Grief, Depression

This book is quite far from what I Imagined.. sure, I knew it was “dark” as the synopsis is talking of suicide partners.. but I honestly wasn’t prepared for it to be as heavy! Though frankly I have no idea what I expected 😂  I wouldn’t say that i’m an “active” suicidal anymore; meaning that what’s left is mostly what i’ve trained my brain to react like, rather than a constant thought of it. Aysel’s way of just shrugging future deadlines with « It doesn’t matter as I won’t be there / don’t know where i’ll be then » is still very much how my brain still think of things.. so it resonated with me alot.

If at first the novel was way darker than I expected, it seemed to become a bit lighter as I went through the chapters and kept going. The further we go into the novel, we ask ourselves what will happen – will they stick to the plan, or will hope be enough to save them both ?

I honestly didn’t thought i’d like it as much as I did, from first glance. I had thought of dropping it and switching book early in the chapters; but I just kept going instead. There’s just something with Aysel’s change of character and the turns of events that kept me reading WAY after the hour that I should’ve had stopped to sleep.

I grew to really love Roman, and like every book I seems to be reading, a part of some of his actions made me think alot of Alex. They both felt so realistic and genuine characters- especially Aysel with her passion of physics. I also couldn’t help from not wanting to finish the book – although I wished as hard as I could that it wouldn’t end like the premise of the book (so, their joined suicide) I also didn’t wanted to continue and find out the slight chance that it still might end up exactly like that. I just wanted thoses character to stay like that forever, with no real ending!!

That concept of a website to “help” with the act is something i’ve read before in I was there by Gayle Forman; but this time we are taken on the other side of the medal. The MC being the one actually using it.