This is how I dissapear ~ Mirion Malle ☆ Graphic Novel Review
Good morning!
As per one of my resolution of the year, I’m trying to read more genres I don’t usually pick up aswell as more french; this one checking both cases as it’s a graphic novel! And just look at this cover 😍 both the front and back are absolutely GORGEOUS.
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5 / 5 stars
I have been pleasently surprised at the format, one of the reason why I don’t buy those is because of how short they seem for the price.. and especially in french, where books are average $20+! At 200pages, this seemed to be a nice lenght. While the drawing were “less elaborate”, they fit with the story and I liked looking at them.
The representation in this is just spot on! We don’t just see the surface stuff, it goes way deeper into seeing the inside of the illness.. the sad reality of it. It tries really well at explaining in a way that outsiders might be able to understand.
We jump right into the novel with a recollection of the MC in a psy appointment, where she’s explaining the first time she felt like dying was at 12years old.. but this time didn’t count, as it was related to some school bullying. From there on we see her struggle with depression through overworking and lack of inspiration; and how hard it is to reach out, even when you really want to.. loved ones get instantly scared when you tell them something like wanting to dissapear, and though they do wanna help, you feel like you can’t reach out because you feel guilty of making them worry so much. So you can’t be absolutely honest with them either. It does a good job to show how someone can have some suicidal idealisation without actually actively wanting to act on it.
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