When anxiety’s playing on high; My tell-tale signs
Good morning friends,
How have you all been? It’s been a while that we’ve had a mental health conversation.. as you can probably tell, my anxiety’s been spiking lately- most probably because of a lack of rest, as I’ve taken an extra day of work for a month in a row.
(Last time we’ve sat around & talked MH issues had been in late October, with my boi Depression.. )
My anxiety’s bad habit is picking, as one would self-soothe. It’s automatic, I will pick on anything and anyone that allows me – 99% of the time on myself. I’ll pluck hair or scratch whetever areas that I can reach; my “favorite” being my right eyebrow, most of the time.
Clearly, I have a thrichotillomania
Does it help? Not really.
Does it makes it worst, AND visible to all? Yeah..
My scalp do this wierd thing where a big chunk of hair would grow out of a single follicule- sometimes itching or being generally uncomfortable. You know where i’m going with this.. 😅
Normally i’ll ask mother to pluck those out, as I cannot see. However… I kinda did it myself and removed a quite large area of hair .. making it so I have a bald spot on my left temples dappled with red bumps. I’m honestly surprised nobody pointed it out as I do work customer service in food industry- and my right eyebrow is severely over plucked 😬 good however, because yikes.
Another thing that you can notice if you look closely, is the increase of my tics – one that I do pretty often is stretching my neck’s muscle, making it pop.. and a wierd grimace. Having the mask requirement was GOLD for me, as it masked the most of this tic being visible 😅 Which must look quite wierd as a customer or even a stranger looking at me..
Ironically, i’ve done this one since I was very little – I wonder how we even missed that ?!
Having gotten a situation recently having me jump the dam and having a good cry- I do feel much better nowadays. I’m not overly paranoid about small things I might’ve said wrong at work anymore. Though as I like to pick at the scabs.. I need a trick to help that grow 😅
Usually it’s in areas that I can just bandaid the heck out of it- even on eyebrows- but that’s a bit more harder.. need me one of those tissue headwraps or something..
What’s your tell-tale of anxiety peak?