You will always matter ! 💕

When living with depression, it’s a common issue that we never see ourselves as being “worth it” – or even being good enough for anything other than failure or the rough path/hurt we’ve been given.

I want you to know, whole-heartedly, that depression is lying.

Back when I was in the deepest of my depression, I’ve had a thought that the only souls that would truly miss me was my dogs; which thanksfully got me to push through. But the way I saw it: my mother had my father to take care of her instead of me, my bestfriend had her half-sister she was getting so much more closer to bit-by-bit than me. In my sick mind.. of course they would be sad for a while, but they had someone else to fall on, someone better than I was.

It’s only back in Christmas time, where my bestfriend was having some trouble with her mother because of Covid, with her sister showing her true colors, that it hit me. One day we were messaging and she told me how she loved me and how she wouldn’t know what to do without me… that I was the only one that she had along with her boyfriend. Tears got brought up to my eyes as I realized how wrong I was back then, despice all the other friends and people in her life, I was very much needed.

My mother always says she got through dialysis and everything for us, for me. My parents has been married for 26years now, but the love of a mother is so much stronger.. she always says she’d drop everything for me. Again, I was very much needed.

Because people always acted disgusted around me, or even at the say of my name in High School, it also never occured to me how the fact that your existance can impact someone else’s life. Even someone you don’t even know.

The smallest of things to you, might means everything for someone else. How many times has I been complimented upon even just remembering a tiny bit about someone’s likes — to me, it’s just my job to know X person loves cinnamon without they needing to say it.. but for that person, he found it amazing that I remember things like that because I see so many customers in a day.

You worth is never something that changes. You matter because you are living, breathing.. not because you have done X,Y or Z. This is something that even myself I need to remember, aswell as it’s not because thoses persons are important to someone, that it means that you aren’t as important for them and that they don’t need you.

You still matter.
You still have your place.
People love and appreciate you, even when you don’t think they do.