Never be ashamed of taking anti-depressants ✨

There’s two kind of anxiety/depression; The one that comes from inside, so your body not doing the chemicals needed in your brain itself, and the one that come from outside, meaning due to a certain circumstance or event(s).

We all know that there’s people that might outgrow anti-depressants, or even don’t need or want to take them.. and that’s absolutely fine! What works for one might not be the best scenario for another one; but there WILL be some of us who will need to “depend” on them until the rest of their life – myself being one of them.

We might remember this from last month’s Bujo post when I briefly talked about going to my dr to renew my prescription, which is a relatively high one. We found out that what works best for me is 3 pills of 75g (so 225g in total) of the generic brand of Effexor. This dose was actually supposed to be the “winter dose” about two years ago; as with seasonal depression and the lack of sun, we all know that it doesn’t help our condition at all so I had asked for an higher dose — but I actually felt so much better on it that I never toned it down.

After complimenting me on how better I looked since taking them, my doctor made a point to explain to me to never be ashamed for needing to take my anti-depressants. That we found that this was my dose, and that my body needs it to function properly. He also went over something that I knew from a tumblr post (ironically, ahaha); People that doesn’t take them are as “dependant” of the chemicals than I am.. but the only difference here, is that their body is actually doing them on it’s own, while mine don’t. 

My bestfriend is also a pharmacy technician, so she’s always been on my side — comforting me that if only I knew how MANY people she sees everyday that takes them.. and my dose is actually not that high, as she had seen people with way higher doses than mine. She did alot to help myself to accept that hey, this is part of me and what my body needs.

Now fast-forward to not that long ago, when I met this guy on tinder.. He was really nice to talk to, until the subject of my meds came on the carpet. He claimed that he had more than enough experiences where he would be with girls with problems™ that only took advantage of him to take care of them and peace off with someone else when they would no longer need him.

He wished me to be able to get off them.. I had never been as furious. I tried to told him that I needed them relatively like a diabetic need it’s insulin, in the sense that my body doesn’t do the chemical it needs for itself and all, and I actually need them to live too.. nothing was working. He was full-on a medication version of the “No-vaccination” BS we see all around nowadays.

I think what made me even more furious was what he had said when I was like: erhh nope, not happening buddy.. “What, you wanna be drugged for the rest of your life?”
Do I really look drugged ?! Which, the more ironic in that situation is that it was coming from a guy that regularly used marijuana 😂 Like, I get that is not the worst one out there, but it’s still a drug – like caffeine, alcohol, and yeah maybe even meds. My medication doesn’t make me numb of all thing, it helps me function like a normal human being! That concept was definately lost on him.. he even dared to tell me that he was big on listening to red flag, which I was showing two big ones: having depression, and NOT THRIVING TO GET OFF MY MEDS!! I can tell you I never blocked anyone that quickly in my life – just a big NOPE! I kinda wished I had seen his face of having me full-on raging, when he previously said that I looked like someone who didn’t had any strong bone in my body 😂😂

Guys, It’s one thing not wanting to take medication for yourself – that’s fair and it’s something we can all understand. But what is NOT OKAY is for telling someone else what they should do with their body, with full on claiming that it’s BS and a concept pharmaceuticals invented to gain money. As far as I know.. you aren’t able to see what’s in my head, nor are you a medical specialist ..

While the support for mental health is improving, there’ll still be people like him out there and the stigma around it is still alive. Don’t make them let you feel ashamed of your need to take them, or make you believe that we all shall “thrive to get off them”. We know what’s best for our mind and body, and absolutely no-one has a say in that.